Conflicting logic

"Never ask for anything. 

Especially from those who are stronger and 

more powerful than you are. 

When they find you worthy 

they will offer anything you need." 

That's how I have been taught. That is how it should be. But real life is not the book.


I recollect one of the conversations while i was looking for a way into design studio of one of major gaming companies. My question was "how do you recruit new designers? How do get influx of new ideas?"

The answer was a roundabout conversation about getting into the company, sending huge amount of CV, making it through the ranks of publishing industry or just being lucky. The latest addition to that design studio was a "random guy who knew our product inside out", and I was reminded again that getting a job is matter of skill and determination. You don't actually have to be "the game designer" to design our games, that was an overall impression of that encounter.

I have promised to build up my portfolio and come back later on. Then I got hooked on the freelance with other set of skills, not involving dice, rulers and book writing. (I was doing an interpreting, should you ask. ) As a result, my confidence and understanding of doing the skilled job have increased dramatically. You don't have to be a paper pusher and beg for a chance to enjoy doing what you really good at.

That of coarse leads towards to freelancer in the crowd. It is demanding, just because the product of your sleepless nights have a great chance to get lost in hundreds of other titles. Unless of coarse you will take a path of business and try to make money on the set of rules you made. Some do.

But there is a certain pride in that. You've done it yourself. Your way.
No begging. But you are open to the offers.

Sincerely yours,
Mark-Paul.